torstai 2. heinäkuuta 2015

Oriental space

Recently, after starting to write again, I read from an old post how I had been missing the western style shopping malls and walking the corridors of a mall alone. I can say that I have been doing it a lot recently. Walking through the white, shiny corridors of shopping malls just by myself. And I have been wondering what is that thing, what is the calming factor of walking in the malls.

Last month I was doing it in two big Asian cities, Shanghai and Bangkok. In those huge, huge cities with millions and millions of people, the malls are like some weird luxury dream islands. The contrast between what is inside and what is outside is as big as are the buildings. Almost all of them air conditioned and clean, the malls hold a little different atmospheres inside. Some are almost silent and sophisticated, some are filled with too many things and little spaces and different sounds.

Long time ago in Spain, I used to visit churches to get some relief from the noise and heat of the streets. I remember how cooling it was inside a church, sitting on it's bench, being surrounded by the dim church lights and the silence. How refreshing it was. And many times a part of me wanted to stay there longer than what I actually did. Yet at the same time some images on the church walls like the bleeding Jesus on his cross made me feel a little uncomfortable and I just wanted to walk out. 

Malls. Big white spaces filled with luxuries. People gathering. Also places where you go hoping to attain something, hoping to fulfill some need. To find something, inner peace maybe, or just ice cream. Or just to window-shop whatever there would be to get. Malls are also like churches. And when I was visiting the malls in Shanghai and Bangkok, I couldn't help but notice the big images on the walls, they were the same in both places. The brands they are selling are the same, of course. The same western luxury brands. The images were perhaps of the same young female western models, and if not exactly the same, they were  look-alikes, all representing ideas of beauty and purity.

All those hundreds and thousands and millions Asian people around. And the images on the walls were of European looking girls, so young you could call them children. Their skin so white and smooth and the whole appearance so innocent and pure it made me think of the images of Madonna on South European church walls. I saw her in Shanghai, and then I saw her in Bangkok again.

In Shanghai I was staying close to West Nanjing Road and the big malls of the business district. It was not always easy to find everyday stuff like basic soap, but it would have been easy to find Prada and Gucci and the like. Yes, the luxury malls with all super expensive western brands were there, and restaurants were there, but finding affordable everyday goods seemed like a difficult task at first. I actually needed some help for finding a normal supermarket to begin with.

From outside, the malls did not look attractive at first. Too calculated, too big, too in-human. But when I understood going inside would mean a possibility to find a movie theatre and maybe even a supermarket, I went into one, and that one became my favourite. Among all those in-human places it became the one to trust. It offered  me silence, coolness and warmth and privacy for my wanders. It offered movies, food and ice cream. Protection from traffic and space and silence to think or not to think, depending on the situation. There was a little restaurant called Honeymoon Desserts where I had some honeymoon time with the Asian desserts all by myself. Moments to remember. 

I became a regular. Sometimes I just passed by and walked through the ground floor and it's ridiculously expensive cosmetic department, observing the spotless, clinical space  and trying the find the exit closest to my hotel. Or I went to movies on the top floor taking time for my self only, or even visiting Honeymoon Desserts, which only felt as special as a honeymoon on the first round. Or I walked around the grocery store on the minus one floor thinking what would be good  with the cucumbers for dinner and how overpriced some things there really were.


On my last day in Shanghai I went there again. It was raining. The water was dripping from my umbrella. The ladies behind their cashiers were smiling politely behind a comfortable distance, and as always, I could enjoy my round of just looking around without anyone really trying to sell me anything. There weren't much customers as it was in the middle of a weekday, and all those other malls were close enough, offering their spaces for the ones that preferred their kind of surroundings and care.

The background music was pleasantly the same around the whole floor. A singer and songwriter, perhaps, the woman was singing in English. The music was a little melancholic and good for the rainy afternoon and saying goodbyes. The familiarity and comfort of that space together with the music created an emotional vibe, which felt funny and real at the same time. Like the cars and trains that become alive in cartoons, it almost felt like this mall had become a living entity. All those walks and moments to remember had made this space something else. I was about to leave and this was my goodbye-walk. I didn't say goodbyes to many people, but I felt I was saying goodbye to everything there by walking through that mall. And if it would have been like in cartoons, that mall would have been saying goodbye to me.




maanantai 22. kesäkuuta 2015

Espanjalainen horoskooppi


Tulevan viikon horoskooppini alkaa näin:
"Estás a punto de entrar en una nueva etapa y es necesario que aproveches ésta semana para cerrar un ciclo de experiencia y crecimiento, tal vez relacionado con los estudios o en el extranjero, fe o religión. Lo cierto es que debes concluir algo para comenzar a otro nivel y en otro espacio".

Olen jo yli kymmenen vuoden ajan lukenut espanjalaisia horoskooppeja ainakin kerran viikossa. Monen vuoden ajan tein sitä useammin, parhaimmillaan tai pahimmillaan jopa kerran päivässä. Hassua tajuta, että tämä tapa on jatkunut niinkin pitkään. Ihan hyvä ja mukava tapa pitää kielitaitoa yllä. Viikon näkymät siis lyhyesti: On aika jättää yksi aikakausi taakse ja aloittaa uusi. Näihin sanoihin ja tunnelmiin.

Kumma juttu tämä. Aina on jokin sykli jäämässä toinen ja toinen alkamassa. Lue vaan horoskooppeja niin huomaat saman.

En ole enää Kiinassa, olen Thaimaassa. Tämä on yllätyksellinen käänne minulle itsellenikin. Ja täältä menen takaisin Intiaan. Että tulipa toivottua sinne palaamista siellä lentokoneessa.

Että ei tässä muuta, mukavaa alkavaa viikkoa.




lauantai 20. kesäkuuta 2015

Estimated departure time


I was watching the movie The Second best Marigold Hotel on the tiny screen of a Dragonair plane. It was the last of the flights of my long, long trip from Helsinki to Shanghai. In the movie, elderly European tourists were landing at their Indian retirement home, ready for the "final departure"  as was jokingly yet poetically said. I also  want to retire in India, that is for sure, I thought. After I just make this trip, and most propably some other trips too. Anyway, sitting there on the fourth day of traveling and wearing the same clothes the idea ot going back to something familiar was very soothing. 

Old, familiar, repeating. At some level I related myself to those old characters in the movie. During the three weeks I spent in Finland I had started thinking about getting an anti-age serum, the hottest thing on the cosmetic market as far as I know. I was testing the serums and even collecting different samples. It was weirdly fascinating. The plan was to enjoy the testing to the fullest and wait for the purchase until the airport and then. Leave the country with a little new.... something. And there I was in the plane,  with a bottle of that magical thing in my bag.

After leaving, I had spent two days at the Hong Kong international airport, as my connection flight and all the other  flights to Shanghai were canceled or delayed for unknown time for a reason no-one seemed to fully understand. Those two days were bizarre. I had nothing to do but to wait, walk around the corridors and do the things you can do at the airport. For one reason or another I kept returning to the same food counter to buy almost the same salad and sushi whenever I got hungry. Repeat, repeat. The serum advertisements kept haunting me, they were all over that airport as well. There would have been two unexpected extra days for choosing the right serum, making even a better decision, who knows.

The estimated departure time appeared over and over again on the big screens, being always far enough in the future. Like five hours. So you would think it's coming but there's plenty of time to enjoy the in-between place and kind of a parallel reality at where you were not supposed to be. Through the big waiting hall windows you cold see the mountains spreading  on both sides. How amazing is that! The view was attractive enough to make one think that the unexpected waiting time was something special.  

At some point the estimated departure time disappeared. Flight number, destination and then nothing. It was never a promise, but always just almost-a-promise. Then at some point it appeared again, and disappeared. 

At first all the delay didn't even bother me. At night I was sent to a very nice hotel in a taxi. It was too late to 
really enjoy the deal to the fullest but I have to say the hotel of the first night was pretty amazing. And when I was 
sitting in the taxi, I got to see something I otherwise would not have seen. Maybe I wouldn't have seen all that either, if staying in Hong Kong  would have been part of the travel plan. Unexpectedness can really open your eyes, for a while.  

All those hundreds and thousands of little windows of the big city buildings behind the taxi window. Each of them shining their own light, in a little different shades perhaps, looking like a nicely organized sea of pearls. In between waiting and getting frustrated I felt I was given some more extraordinary moments.  

By the next evening, the hopes of departure turned into tiredness and desperation. Hopes got bigger as the departure gate was also given, for the very first time during the whole delay circus. People got more and more restless, angry, rushing, even shouting. Everyone was ready to fly. Then the screen went empty again, estimated departure time changed to next morning. I started feeling devastated. Like a plane full of people was dropped out of the game and forgotten. 

Then through immigrations to a taxi again. Speciality got killed by repetition, the mind started taking over. Whereas  on the previous night I had been delighted to see the hotel, this time I felt like bitching about the service and facilities as the quality of this  hotel was not as high.  There was nothing wrong with this one either.  The shining little windows were still  there during the taxi drive, but instead of just admiring the beauty I heard my mind reminding how late it would be before I would hit the bed. I  already knew the driving time to the city center. And as I already knew or thought I knew, there was less space for wonder.   

Next morning I was flying again. Watching The Second Best Marigold Hotel. See, even the movie was a volume two. A hoped-to be a pleasant experience of something familiar. Oh, the balance between the old and the new. I opened the serum bottle in Shanghai. There was definitely magic in the air, but it was other kind of magic. It was the new territory kind of magic that no serum could ever beat. And I knew I would have plenty of time before anything in that place would feel old and usual.